Reflective Blog #3

           Reflection has always been a center of my life. Sometimes to a point of frustration, as I will leave a social event and think back to everything that was said. I will ponder the choices in conversation I had, body language I picked up from others, and an endless checklist of items I am not sure others ponder. The odd thing about the fact that this is how I am on a daily basis, is it seems to make doing these reflective blogs more difficult. I recognize the seemingly obvious disconnect between that thought and statement, but have some thoughts as to why. Every time I leave Anser I can’t help but think of children I may have in the future. I think about where I want them to go to school, if their style of teaching is really the benefit I would like to have my kids be able to take part in. I will think about the students I interacted with, and if the things that I am doing while there are really any sort of benefit to them, and what I can do more to try to insure that I am serving with the best of my ability.

            This is the reason that it is difficult for me to write, because I feel like I am beating a dead horse. The thoughts have lived so long in my mind and have been molded and remolded, considered and changed, and all together just over thought. Also my thoughts are so scattered, and that leads to a fluffy sap filled tribute to how much I enjoy the opportunity to serve and how important I think forcing yourself out of your comfort zone is for anyone attempting to grow. With any project, writing, or presentation I do, I try to avoid disclaimers but I guess these thoughts are just that.

            Having stated my disclaimer, when I enter Anser, (admittedly sometimes difficult to go because I have other things that need my attention) I love it. It is awesome to have kids that I never would have known run up to me and yell “Michael!”. They are so excited to see me come in, and well what is better than someone who enjoys you when you know they have no ulterior motives. I have never written anything negative about Anser, and that has two reasons. The first is they work hard and I can tell genuinely care about the success of each child. The second is when a person or organization is focused and accomplishing dominantly good why nit pick and demine to me it has no value. Everything said and done I have really appreciated this opportunity, and hope that I can keep my motivation up to continue finding service opportunities outside of our classroom.